Night Changes
Last Monday, I decided to change my major. I had been applying for the nursing program, a very competitive program at BYU, and had decided that I wanted to be a nurse. However, the more I worked on my application, the more wrong it felt. I have been volunteering for a lot of different things that have to do with mental health, and I love what I have been doing. I realized that if I did the nursing program I would have to stop doing almost all of them because the nursing program is very rigorous. I want to go to graduate school in mental health, and I realized that if I went through the nursing program and then became Mental Health Nurse Practitioner, I would miss out on a bunch of experiences that would prepare me for a career in Mental Health, and help me get into graduate school. Not only that, but it would take me a year longer to graduate. I realized that all I really wanted to do was become a therapist. I want to help other people in the way that I have been helped, and it is where my talents lie. So, I made the hard decision to change my major to psychology.
Consequently, I spent the whole week applying for a major change, class, volunteer opportunities, and jobs. I have filled out so many applications this week I can't even keep track of them all. XD My life plans changed quickly, but I have felt confirmation the whole way. I know now this is what the Lord wants me to do, and what He has been leading me toward my whole time at BYU. I have always felt like my life mission is not to try to change the world in a big way, but in a small way: making a big impact on one person at a time. That fits with my new chosen career exactly. I am really excited, and passionate about everything I doing right now and will be doing in the future.
Last Friday my boyfriend broke up with me. It was a very amicable breakup, and no one did anything wrong, it just wasn't right. I have been doing well, but it is hard because I miss him, and I really felt like it was going somewhere. However, I am so grateful that I got to learn and grow from dating him, and know that I am a better person because I did. I only hope that he can say the same about me.
Sometimes like changes in a moment. We think we know what our future is going to be, but God has other plans. It seems like everything changes in an instant, in one night, in one week, or in one year. Sometimes I feel like these changes leave me reeling and unsure of my path, but because I have the gospel I am always certain of one thing: that I am following God. As I learned on my mission, so many things change, but God stays the same. Our pillar, staff, stay and comfort can be God because He never shifts or changes. He is always there for us, and will always love us. We just have to trust in Him, and not our plans for our own life, or where we think the path lies. He knows, we just have to follow Him.
Consequently, I spent the whole week applying for a major change, class, volunteer opportunities, and jobs. I have filled out so many applications this week I can't even keep track of them all. XD My life plans changed quickly, but I have felt confirmation the whole way. I know now this is what the Lord wants me to do, and what He has been leading me toward my whole time at BYU. I have always felt like my life mission is not to try to change the world in a big way, but in a small way: making a big impact on one person at a time. That fits with my new chosen career exactly. I am really excited, and passionate about everything I doing right now and will be doing in the future.
Last Friday my boyfriend broke up with me. It was a very amicable breakup, and no one did anything wrong, it just wasn't right. I have been doing well, but it is hard because I miss him, and I really felt like it was going somewhere. However, I am so grateful that I got to learn and grow from dating him, and know that I am a better person because I did. I only hope that he can say the same about me.
Sometimes like changes in a moment. We think we know what our future is going to be, but God has other plans. It seems like everything changes in an instant, in one night, in one week, or in one year. Sometimes I feel like these changes leave me reeling and unsure of my path, but because I have the gospel I am always certain of one thing: that I am following God. As I learned on my mission, so many things change, but God stays the same. Our pillar, staff, stay and comfort can be God because He never shifts or changes. He is always there for us, and will always love us. We just have to trust in Him, and not our plans for our own life, or where we think the path lies. He knows, we just have to follow Him.
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