Look at the Dashboard

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This last week moving back to school has been crazy. School hasn't even started yet and I'm already super busy. I have been unpacking, buying a car, applying for jobs, volunteering, applying for volunteer positions, going to doctors appointments, meeting with the bishop about being a temple worker again, and doing all the paperwork associated with getting two jobs. I feel like for every thing I do, two more things are created for me to accomplish. I have been running around a lot and it has been stressing me out. So, when two days after I bought my car three different warning lights came on, I was pretty ready to give up. Yesterday, as I was driving my roommate and myself to the grocery store, I was ranting about how stressed I was. I was so upset I started crying a bit. I was paying attention to the road, and I hadn't been driving very long, when I suddenly looked down at the dashboard. All of the warning lights were off, and my car was driving perfectly. I was stunned. I sat there for a couple minutes in shock, and then turned to my roommate and said: "God just fixed my car for me." My car working again solved a lot of my problems and made my life more doable. It was another of those simple ways that I saw that God was looking out for me. From my new roommate being amazing and more than I could have ever hoped for, to getting two jobs at school, God has been looking out for me all week, even when I was not paying attention. It reminded me that while we are on this journey of life, looking at the road is important, but looking down at the dashboard to take stock of God's hand in our life is also essential, and may make our journey easier.

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